Just Another Guy

As an update to my process of becoming who I really am, I have noticed that some of my friends are changing the way they are acting towards me. These are some of my queer friends, and I am talking about my gender issues now. People are treating me like just another guy, and I love it. I love it so much. And these are people who don't even all know that I am trans, all they know is that I am a "girl" (although admittedly very butch-like one) and still they treat me like a guy, as one of the guys to be exact. So yeah, it seems they have guessed already. Cool.

I think I'll do the big coming out one of these days -- let the cat out of the bag so to speak, so we can talk about things more openly. The only reason I'm not out to everybody yet is that I don't really have a need to talk about it. I'm dealing with it myself, and I'm talking to my girlfriend and some other wonderful people online. In general, I simply don't like talking about my personal stuff, and especially I hate whining. Yeah, your typical guy, I know. Talking is a problem for me. That's how I've always been -- I deal with the issue first, then (maybe) I can talk about it. It can be very hard if it is a painful and difficult matter, and I've had more than enough of those in my life. Depression, hating myself, self harm, suicidical thoughts, to mention some of the issues I've dealt with. Talking is difficult, but I've learnt to talk to one very special person, so I'm much better off now. Yes, that person is my girlfriend. Not very surprising, huh. Well, she's sweet.

It seems that some people are starting to gender me correctly, not everyone yet, but some are. So I think it's about time to talk about it and that way give others permission to talk about it as well. Yes, about time.